It is almost my third attempt at writing this article, and for some reason, I prioritise something else each time I think I want to write this article on social media experiment that I did, to sum up, all different experiences I went through.
Why is it that I procrastinate the one thing that I really love?
I mean it’s just so ironic — You love it, but you still won’t do it. What do I fear?
Not quite sure about that, but I do know I have always kept the best things I want to do, for the last when I have completed everything else. I think I believe in keeping the best for the last and in doing so, I spend a lot of time in being almost sure that I have done everything else before I get to writing. However insane that might sound that is true.
Well, this is the fourth attempt at writing this article and a zillion thoughts later. I doubt myself in that case — do I love to write? Or is it just in my mind? Like I cleaned the house, then I thought maybe my husband wants to watch our daily quota of Netflix and then I just started cleaning my MacBook like the least important of it all, but I did all that so I can escape writing. I don’t know why I keep avoiding it.
Ok, so this is the fifth one, and I come back just the next day, which is excellent. Reason — we woke up, and it is a usual Sunday morning, and I was going to bury my head in all the routine, and we were discussing on how we can better manage our time over the weekend.
To which I said my problem is that I prioritise house cleaning, household stuff before my writing or reading or other personal habits. To which my husband asked me what the one thing, which would pain me on Monday morning if I wouldn’t do it is.
And I think I got my answer it would be ‘THIS’ if I am not able to complete this write up I would be quite disappointed. And thus I overcame my laziness or whatever that I was doing to delay the writing. I just took my laptop, wrote the article and there I accomplished it.
However, I didn’t publish until almost a month. But I wasn’t gung-ho on the whole publishing thing, I just wanted to collect my thoughts in one place and write it down.
And this is the sixth time I opened this write-up so I can finish it and only then crash for the day. Did you hear that?
As I said, it wasn’t the first thing I did today, it is the last, and that’s I need to get better at doing this more frequently. What I have learnt is I need to get better at doing what I want to do the first thing in the day, probably after brushing and breakfast. And do it. Moreover, get it out of my mind and to-do-list early on in the day.
It’s something you want to love; if you make it a task, it becomes one and a burden.
So I am far from it being a habit, but I am getting a little better each day. And the good thing is I have already published my first article on social media, and I promised myself I should post one each week.
- I shall keep writing, and it need not be perfect — I shall learn over time.
- It need not be my best article, need not spend crazy hours researching and thinking and rewriting it.
- I am just going to write it and post it and improve a little every time I do that.
Because this way I shall keep doing it and not procrastinate.